Get Ready, Get set, GO!

Here is my first foray into blogging. I have big changes coming in my life, and this will serve as a journal of sorts. I have been surreptitiously lurking on others' blogs, and I decided to get in on the action. I am a bit overwhelmed with the whole process, and it took me far too long to get the basics set up.

Starting with the day's events. Finally broke down and took Julian to the shrink. He walked out with 2 prescriptions. One is for Adderall. He has always had difficulty concentrating and being organized. He was in grade school in the 90's, before ADHD received a lot of attention. After the appointment he was very positive, and seemed relieved. I hope that continues.

I normally have an aversion to doctor's visits, and usually end up in urgent care in the 11th hour, like in cases of strep or the dreadful UTI. Part of the reason I avoid going is, I am a hypochondriac. I read about scary stuff in magazines (Could you have breast cancer?) and online. I actually have WebMD bookmarked. Last year, right around this time, I had a brutal kidney infection that landed me in the ER with a 104.5 fever. For some undetermined reason, I also had a horrible rash all over my face, neck and torso. Google it. I was absolutely convinced that I had Lupus. Not too dramatic, right?

I also had a doctor's appointment today. I have what appears to be Ganglion cysts. They hurt and they look gross. I had to stop going to yoga, which I was really digging, because I can't support my weight on my right hand without searing pain. No big deal says Doc, signs me up for 6 days of steroids, will aspirate if the steroids don't work.

The more worrisome concern...I have been experiencing crazy dizziness. I have had to get off the treadmill, for fear of fainting. I am afraid to open drawers at work, because I have to bed over, and when I stand upright, I am very lightheaded. My vision is blurred, and headaches are non-stop. I am certain I have hypertension, aka high blood pressure. The nurse takes my bp, and it's 112/74. Totally in the normal range. Ok, whew on that. Then my mind races. What else can it possibly be? Brain tumor??

After a few simple physical screens, and a looky-loo, I learn that I have copious amounts of fluid on my sinuses and inner ears, which is likely the culprit of my dizziness. Coupled with what was described as HUGE tonsils, and swollen glands. Great, easy to solve, 10 days on antibiotics.

So far so good, right? Except for this one...I have a palpable nodule on my throat. Oh Dear Lord, what can this be? Throat cancer? Hypothyroidism? LUPUS??? (I don't know why I'm stuck on that one.)

Tomorrow I am getting a full panel blood draw. I am 12 hours NPO (fasting) prior to the lab visit. I am a classic emotional eater, and normally I would have downed some serious junk food in other circumstances. I am stressed about the test (no one likes getting stuck), nervous about Julian, nervous about all my other issues (tonsils, sinuses, etc), hopped up on steroids, and I can't eat!! waaaahhhh!

There is nothing I can do but wait it out. And google every possibility.